“ In 2046, nothing ever changes. But nobody knows if that’s true or not because no one has ever come back. Take Care. May be one day you’ll escape your past. If you do, please look for me”
Extracted from the Movie “2046” directed by Wong Kar-wai
I wish I could forget, although I am afraid of forgetting. But I want to forget. After breaking up with someone with whom I had planned my whole life and my whole ambition, I feel like relationships are disposable. In response I started dating with men I met on Tinder.
I am fragile with them sometimes. Later I started feeling sad and angry when I realised I need other men to forget a man. It’s a mixed feeling. Sometimes I enjoyed the company, sometimes it makes me sad. When I woke up to see their backs not his, I became sadder. I cried once.
Memories are so miserable - they keep coming back like a boomerang. Though we try to throw it as far as we can, it keeps coming back. The way I remember those memories changes over time and gives me different feelings.
I know one day I will eventually forget him. Forgetting is also the job of your memory, isn’t it? Not just remembering.
